Best part about failing… Trying again…

11/18/19

I started this blog with the true intentions of writing everyday for 365 about my grandmother… I have obviously failed that… Life doesn’t always go to according to plan… I tried to update my blog back in September and whatever happened either way here I am again!

First thing first, grandma is fine. She’s back at home. She had her 88th birthday October 30th. I haven’t been home much since I left for Montana, back in August.. I spent about a month at home at most. Within that month I spend most of my time with grandma. It hasn’t been easy watching her age, watching her lose her memory, watching her struggle. BUT if you know me well enough I try to make the positives out of anything.

Yet these days its hard to positive…. I adore my grandmother it used to be easy when people asked me how is she doing? I would always tell them she’s good, just getting older. These days when my closest people ask… I just tell them that’s not my grandma anymore.

As hard as it is to say… She is my grandma and somedays are better than others. It’s very difficult to leave her at home. I do not mean this in any negative aspect but as said in my previous blogs… Her spirit is leaving her….

So with that being said, I thought about when I left for Montana… It was hard to leave because you have to make plans as a care taker, who is going to take care of grandma? I’m thankful for the family that helps us out during these times. Life has happened and we’re all just trying our best. I had many moments while I’ve been away… Mostly about this thing we call LIFE. Which I will write about in my next blog….

Published by jessarkeketa

My name is Jessica Arkeketa. I am a member of the Otoe-Missouria Tribe of Oklahoma. I currently reside in Sand Springs, Oklahoma. I’ve always had a passion for writing but never made an effort to make my writing public. Also this is a helpful resource to help me cope with my aging grandmother.

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